Sitting with a bunch of useless thoughts that keep circling around in your head can make anyone go crazy, eventually. Why choose to put yourself through so much trouble of holding onto little things that can so easily be thrown out the window? Why is it always harder to let things go when you hurt the most? Doesn't it make more sense to let things go when they are most unwanted rather than not? Am I even making any sense at all?
Why do I feel so compelled to write right now, when I know that I have nothing worth saying?
I feel anxious, and nothing seems to be helping. I guess there are a number of things I could do to try and relieve this horrible feeling.. Perhaps I could scream into my pillow, or maybe even cry into it. Or I could go for a run around the block. I could call someone or just pray in my head if speaking seems too hard to do right now. I could write a poem, or sing a song, or count the stars in the sky. I could pet my cat or make some tea, take a bath or meditate. Or I could just sit at my computer and write about all of the things I could do, because deep down I really don't want to do any of them, and talking about it seems much more appealing, which in the end actually helps a little.
Well I have to say, this has been a useless entry, with nothing of importance being said whatsoever. On that note, I will go now and watch some silly youtube videos or look at silly pictures to try and laugh a little of this tension off.
Until next time.....
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